After my husband began experiencing some minor symptoms that didn’t seem normal, he reached out to his physician and requested a routine colonoscopy. On August 30th, 2018 I will forever remember the moment the Doctor called me to provide me with an update. She said “We removed 2 polyps, but also found a suspicious growth that we sent off for a biopsy”. In that moment my heart shattered into a million pieces. I knew deep down that something horrific was going on with his body and I immediately began to cry, all while my husband (still under anesthesia) was looking at me smiling hoping I would smile back. I felt so guilty because I couldn’t smile back and lie to him that everything was going to be okay. I somehow managed to keep myself together in front of him, though I felt so numb and scared. That moment will forever haunt me for the rest of my life.
Never in a million years would I have imagined my life unfolding the way that it has. Nor did I ever think of myself as the type to want to start a blog and write about my deepest most painful moments. I recently found myself trapped as a prisoner in my own head; feeling so much heartache, self-doubt, fear, defeat, and the list goes on and on. I’ve never felt so low and scared in my entire life. It wasn’t until I recently saw my husband’s vibrant spirit that inspired me to change my whole mindset and embark on this journey with a new mission in sight.
Our lives changed forever last year. On September 24th, he had surgery to remove 1/3 of his colon and at the age of 46, my husband was diagnosed with Stage IIIc Signet ring cell carcinoma of the colon. This news has been a huge blow to our family, spirit, and hearts. This journey of ours does not come with a guidebook or instructions, so we are living each day the best way we know how. I want to document and share our story as I hope to help others in similar situations cope and know they are not alone. This will be an emotional journey for me, but I know I can do it and I feel so inspired to do so.
NO ONE FIGHTS ALONE!
MOMENTS THAT BRING US TOGETHER 
Thank you so much for sharing, Bambi. This was beautifully written. You are all so incredibly brave and your family is lucky to have your support. My heart goes out to your family.
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