I could never have imagined the joy that celebrating his 50th birthday would have brought me. It was more than I ever could have asked for. I have spent other special occasions without him and I often felt sadness. Yet, this time I found myself in a much happier mood. This was a huge surprise to me, but it made me feel more connected to him in so many ways. 

To honor him, I wanted to do something extra special. I made 50+ candles and shared them with loved ones that wanted to partake in celebrating his 50th heavenly birthday. I felt that this was a beautiful gesture that brought light into the darkness that his absence has left behind. It turned out more stunning than I envisioned. 

Social media was lit up with many people posting birthday wishes for him! I could not believe the outpouring of love. It truly was a reflection of the kind of man he was. I can’t even put into words how much I miss him. I keep finding myself giving him the same love every day that I did when he was here with me. 

I can not stop thinking about all the things I would have liked to have attempted to do to make his birthday memorable. I know that I could do more. I am reminded of how I lived for him. Making him happy brought me great happiness. He loved his special day and I will continue to work to keep his memory alive. There will be many more. He will never be forgotten. 

I know in my heart that he was with all of us as we honored him on his 50th birthday. I am so thankful for those who had a part in honoring him. It means more to me than words can say.

“There are some who bring a light so great to the world

that even after they have gone, their light remains“