Reality has finally sunken in that this will be our first Christmas without our beloved James. Under normal circumstances I would totally be planning our Christmas morning breakfast menu and wrapping gifts all week leading up to Christmas, but not this year. It will definitely be different to say the least.

Some of you may already know that James was a huge Adam Sandler fan and we watched all his movies together. While Adam Sandler is amazing, James’s all time favorite movie was The Nightmare Before Christmas. This movie first came out in 1994. James and I were just friends at the time and I was living in Chicago. As soon as the movie came out on VHS, I bought it for him. He kept it this entire time and we still have the tape.

This Christmas we will be having our usual Christmas morning breakfast and plan to stay safe and be home alone with just us. The rest of the day will consist of a movie marathon that will start with The Nightmare Before Christmas and will continue with all his other favorite movies that we loved to watch together as a family. My kids also have a special dinner planned that they will be cooking all by themselves. I couldn’t ask for a better day.

I welcome all the prayers for our family during this emotionally draining time. The outpour of love that we still receive is just amazing. I just want everyone to know we are okay. It will definitely be hard and I can guarantee there will be some tears shed, but I wish you all a very Merry Christmas. Don’t forget to tell your loved ones how much they mean to you.

P.S.- I couldn’t bring myself to send Christmas cards this year. I’m so sorry to all the friends and family that loved our cards. It just wasn’t something we were ready to do as a family yet.